A Poem (03)
By Ismail Sunni Muhammad
The sensation of heavyhearted
engulfed me,
It was so tight for heart to pump
the blood up,
It’s even harder and harder to
breathe freely,
Realizing those beautiful
remembrances come to fade in slow.
I kept trying to seek, run wildly
while lunging,
Open those which was closed,
Frame every single fragment of
memories,
Connect all old stories of mine and
yours,
About a friendship that wasn’t apart
from happiness and sorrow.
Bounded puzzle of life that hide
within pitch-dark wall of my heart,
With colorful smile scratches and
laughing of joy,
With unforgettable passionate tears
and overflow yearning,
So noisy but comforting,
So consoling all miserable
apprehensive spreading.
It’s right,
I wasn’t, and I’m not alone.
I stand up with my God,
I sit down with my beloved prophet,
I come up with lofta persons loving
me.
But those horrifying shadows were
undeniable,
They come but to leave me behind,
They meet but to forget me at last,
They play with but to disappear from
my mind,
They love but to ignore me so fast,
To make me realize,
I was not supposed to be their
friend like past.
With honest excuse,
I acknowledge,
I’m a weak unlike those who were
strong and dependable,
I’m a foolish and weird one, unlike
those who were smart and believable,
I’m not even adroit or good-looking,
unlike those who were elegant and loveable,
I am the one with simple and modest
profile, unlike those who were dashing and amusing,
Here I am who often did some
mistakes in saying and behaving,
I myself am aware of unable to be
your perfect buddy ever yet.
But please dude,
Don’t grow distant from my life,
Don’t vanish out of my sight,
Don’t let me crying buried lonely in
a grief alley,
Or smile, satisfying myself in proud
without worrying and caring you.
Cause I knew,
I realized,
I goddamned realized badly and wanna
cry in my calm,
While whispering in cold
confession,.
“you all are truly valuable for me, guys”
Heart words in alabaster of emotion.
Haddad Chamber,
Monday, January 28, 2013, 4.30 p.m.
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